Monday, October 6, 2014

the shit storm just never ends - my friends tell me they don't know how I'm still making it and honestly sometimes I don't either.

On Thur of last week I decided to surprise my middle daughter, M, at the pep rally (she cheers). I got there a few minutes after it started because I knew she would be more nervous if she saw me.  When I walked in I saw the principal and he called me over.  He said, "M's in the office.".  I was like what? He said "CPS is here and I tried to get them to come back later so she wouldn't miss the pep rally but they insisted, do you want to go over there (we were in gym)".  Yes of course.  He takes me over and the social worker introduces herself, I'm sure she was surprised that I had shown up.  I asked her what was going on and she said that someone had called in and said that I allowed M to smoke marijuana at her friends house as long as the friend's mom was supervising.  No, I'm not kidding.  They seriously are investigating this absolutely ridiculous accusation. Of course they can't tell you who called in AND no the person didn't say whose friends house or provide any details about that but they sure provided details about us.  Go figure.  So, Friday I had to meet her at lunch and be "interviewed".  Tue she is coming to the house to "interview" the girls.  I'm disgusted and furious.  Firstly, M was so upset and crying, who would put her through this after all she has already been through????? and me? and the rest of the girls????  What evil terrible person hates me so much that they are doing everything they can to destroy my life because the girls are my life.  I'm devastated.

This is the third time I've had CPS called on me in less than 2 1/2 years.  The first time was when they investigated an allegation that the girls were being molested and it was closed as unfounded (but as you know that later turned out to be true), the second time was three weeks AFTER I had reported him to authorities and he had already been arrested and someone called in and said that I knew about the abuse and did nothing (because whomever it was didn't know that I was the one who turned him in), and now this.  I feel harassed, I feel targeted, I feel like a loser.  These people don't know me, they don't know my kids they just see a single mother whose had CPS called on them three times.  I'm afraid.

Why is this happening to me????? What have I ever done to deserve all the terrible things that have happened in my life???? For once, I'm just gonna say it - I am a good person, I'm a nice person, I'm honest, loyal, fair, I have integrity, I do the right thing and what am I getting for it??? The shaft - constantly.

The worst thing is I was completely blindsided by this.  I mean in my mind I have few enemies - N's father, M&K's father, N's father's extended family.  However the weird thing is that N told me a month or two ago that her friends mother let's her friend smoke pot.  It just seems  weird that the allegation is so close to this statement but yet about me, so to me it feels like N told someone something and it got twisted but you would think it would at least include N not M.  How did M's name get involved if that's the case.  I just don't get it.  I would pay big money to know who called CPS. I am dying to know but no they get to hide behind anonymity the cowards.