Wednesday, August 12, 2015

well here we are at the start of a new school year and little N's first year.  Looking back it has been a pretty good summer all in all.  K has def improved over the summer and we had high hopes of her return to school - unfortunately those have not come to fruition.  She is almost being shunned by her "friends" - they are polite to her but in the past three days of school she has ate lunch by herself.  If only there was someone who would reach out to her to make her feel welcome and wanted but evidently those "friends" are evil little bitches with zero empathy - I'd like to tell them all about themselves and punch them in the face.  Really we shouldn't be surprised, she hadn't heard from them all summer.  Not one.  She does have a place to go at lunch in the office so she doesn't feel like humiliated.  She's too fragile to reach out on her own - hopefully as the school year goes on she will meet new people and make new friends.  A new friend she made over the summer goes to her school , but she got sick and is missing the first week - after she comes back I hope things start to change.  If only Jordan would get involved in some type of activity at school it would help her make friends also but she is too self-conscious to try anything.  The vp and the counselor you would think would be able to help in this area but have been practically useless except for making the "safe space" available.   All this money spent on suicide prevention and what has it done for my girl? Not a damn thing.  I did talk to her about an alternative and she said that she didn't want to quit that "they" would just say "she couldn't handle it this year either" - I'm proud and sad all at the same time.  M is doing great - she gave up cheer and tried out for soccer.  She really seems to enjoy it and I'm glad and she's working hard.  It did cost me a lot of money - I swear I don't know how people do it - I mean I make a pretty good salary and I'm seriously struggling.  Of course I do have three kids and no child support.

More to write but gotta go.

Keep us in your prayers!

1 comment:

  1. This makes me so sad! I think school and all the social stuff that goes along with it, is much harder nowadays than it was for us. When my oldest daughter, Pam, was in school, if a girl was sitting by herself at lunch time or at recess, Pam would make a friend with her. My Pammie was always for the under-dog and didn't care if others made fun of her for being so.