Friday, September 26, 2014

I'm really not sure what to do....

I checked K's phone while she was in the shower. I wonder if she subconsciously wants me to because she hasn't changed the password.  I am planning on checking it again soon with her knowledge but I had the chance this morning and I took it.  Be careful what you wish for...

It's amazing how well she is able to make me think she is doing well.  When I read her messages I realize that I don't know her at all.  I'm not sure if she says the things she says because they are true or because she is manipulative and wants attention.  She's telling one girl she is doing really bad and then in another message to someone else that they can't come over because I have cameras everywhere because I'm monitoring her, which is not true.  She is telling another boy that she wants to have sex with him in his car at lunch at school.  I found out that she had sex with another boy a while back.  She is totally out of control.  I'm glad I looked at her messages because she is NOT going anywhere or doing anything unless I'm right there with her period.  Even though I had read her messages after she went into the hospital and realized that she was unstable, I was hoping that the change in medication would help her but apparently that is not so, but she is less moody, like her moods don't fluctuate as intensely and she is not as irritable.  I'm also taking her and getting her put on birth control ASAP.  This is really freaking me out.  She turns 15 Oct 4th.


  1. Yes--get the birth control because you aren't going to change her sexual behavior once it starts. I don't think it is wrong to monitor her phone or computer accounts or anything else you have to do to keep her from ruining her entire life. I hope you can get some real help on her meds. This is so hard!!!

  2. Being 15 isn't easy...but being the parent of a 15 year old is even harder in my opinion. It's hard, but you have to do what you think is best - even when you don't know what that is.